I haven’t been posting as much as I would like or want to over the last couple weeks. Why? Because I have been unorganized, unfocused and all over the place. I have been tired and frustrated complaining to myself that I just don’t have enough time in the day to get it all done. And that’s also the reason I gained 6 pounds. I am now at 173lbs. I stepped off the scale angry. Angry at myself. I know exactly what I need to do to take care of myself and I have chosen to put myself last. I. hit. bottom.
I worked out for years every day and felt my absolute best. I also felt good in my clothes. I could walk into my closet and put anything on. ANYTHING….and I didn’t have to do the turns in front of the mirror to see what flaws were showing. I just got dressed and left! It was an incredible feeling and I know other women feel the same. You can have hundreds of items in your closet, beautiful things, but if you don’t feel good wearing them, you might as well be wearing a trash bag.
Yesterday, I walked into the closest gym and joined. Later that night I laid out my clothes/gear, put my shake mix out on the counter with a glass, went into the bathroom and laid out my inhaler (yes, I’m wheezy), and hair ties, all because I wanted to be able to get up and get going without “searching for things”. I then went to bed at 10pm. I didn’t stay up and watch my shows, I didn’t even read. I just went to bed. Continue reading →